Hi, I'm Oliver.
Coffee enthusiast with a love for all things tech. Tech enthusiast with a love for all things coffee. Failing my
Bachelor's in Computer Science at USW.
Denial
Dear friend
It's been almost 3 weeks. It feels just like before, but this time I have nothing to hold on to.
An answer?
Dear friend
I don't want to pile on the excuses. I'm not going to pretend like my actions were outside of my agency. But I find it critical to understand the why of my behaviour so that I can work on fixing it.
Fragments
Dear friend
I wish I were braver. I wish I had the courage to tell you what really goes on in my mind. I wish I could tell my therapist just how painful all this is without being told affirmations like “I am enough”. I don't want empty words, I want to stop hurting. Why can't anyone make it stop hurting?
The sky didn't match
Dear stranger
Why did that day hurt? I had years to process, overcome, and accept that you were not the person I hoped you could have been; the person you never were. And still I cried.
The safety of the fall
Dear friend
I don't want to be here. I don't want the pain. But it's all I know.